Had Nothing To Do So…Here

I came across an interesting concept today…basically all human life is based on illusions…not in the sense of say the Matrix where we’re actually all human batteries powering downright nasty synthetic machinery with our brain power but more like…well…try taking the whole world apart then grinding it into the finest powder, then passing it through the finest sieve possible…would you be able to prove conclusively that there is even one solitary atom of truth, justice, love, etc?to put it another way…could anyone prove without a doubt that all those magnificent qualities that define humans really do exist except in our heads?I can hear you arguing…isn’t love & kindness tangible in the good that people perform everyday such as charity, the kiss you give your loved one, the sacrifices you make for family…etc?but those are just manifestations of those supposed values don’t you think?bluntly put then…people need…dreams…to survive in this world…humans are fascinating creatures ’cause we’ve invented something miraculous in itself which is boredom!we make our own little worlds & the borders stop just so wherever we want them to…imagine what we’d do if we could really see the world in its entirety…truthfully…humankind probably wouldn’t have progressed much ’cause we’d probably revel in the beauty of something as simple as a flower leaving us prey to larger, hungrier animals with bigger teeth*grin*instead we can look at something quite amazing like a person’s smile or the whistling of the wind &…dismiss them…on the other hand perhaps if we could experience every aspect of what we do & its repercussions maybe we wouldn’t be so very eager to start wars or cause pain in the name of profit…we’d go mad if we did…it’s been scientifically proven after all that people don’t utilise more than 10% of their full brain capacity…would we better or worse if we were given the chance even for a day to use it all?I don’t know…

It’s funny y’know…the stuff that can set people off…I mean it was a reasonable response to a question that he asked me…& he DID ask me for my opinion…if I were in that position where I was going to be going overseas soon I would definitely NOT engage in any relationship deeper than friendship…I mean there’s so much stuff that I still haven’t done nor seen nor felt…I mean at this point a relationship would just be a bit like voluntary added weight…although it’s cruel to say so but it’s the most expendable human relationship when I’m still so young…I can’t shirk my education nor my responsibilities toward my family so that pretty much leaves a relationship in last place…trust me, this was sent home to me the HARD way by someone…yeah yeah…I know relationships are a learning experience that everyone has to go through with its ups & downs yadda yadda but not until I’M sure I’d be able to put the time & effort into it the way it deserves…so unless there’s a guy out there who could turn me inside out & make me completely lose my common sense…sorry but nope…no way…nix…so there…that’s my opinion & I’m sticking with it no matter how cold you think I am…therefore if you still want to lecture me I’m not going to pick up your calls anymore=p & yes I choose to remain single even though I’m not going overseas…so what?

here goes…I am once again going to embark upon a blogging experience which I failed miserably at the last time*rueful grin*but seriously folks…I HAD NOTHING BETTER TO DO!let’s see…finished playing my PS games, finished reading the books that were supposed to last me throughout CNY, there’s NOTHING on tv so…I decided to follow the advice of a friend ( thanks Nick ) to blog when I am supremely bored…just finished this suspense cum thriller called "Nothing to Fear"…it’s pretty creepy…personally I could’ve done without so many pages detailing mind blowing sex but hey…that’s just me right?the freaky bits were when the psychopathic killer bent on revenge systematically killed all the people who ‘wronged’ her…I mean shooting a guy systematically at both wrists & knees, watching him squirm around & then slicing his ermm…jewels off?besides I think I should lay off the scary stuff for awhile…reminder to self…do not finish creepy book followed by equally creepy movie…but I have to tell ya…"The Village" by Night Shyamalayan kinda sucked…guess the guy can’t seem to live up to the success of his first movie…btw to all you people who like Nyonya food…there’s this great place called Restoran Nyonya at Jalan Tong Shin…the chili garam fish & the belacan fried pucuk paku rock…oh me…I’m starting to feel faint from the exertion of writing this brief glimpse into that which is me…ciao everybody!=]