YAY!
YES!there is a God!forget ’bout getting shot up with happy pills…I’ve ascended even that blissful state =] I have just found out that my Business Organisations Law assignment that I’ve been agonising over has just had its deadline extended…words cannot describe my euphoria*grin*yes yes…I know this is only postponing the inevitable but…still…YAY!
did you ever get the feeling that if you turned around fast enough you could recapture a moment that’s lost?that the quicksilver-like movement would be stilled just that fraction of a second long enough for you to grasp it?odd isn’t it?if I could have the choice of taking back moments I’d accumulate them all to within my 17th and 18th years…but if I actually think ’bout it those 2 years played a great part in shaping me emotional-wise…god…it’s hard to believe that there was ever a time when I was so sure I could take on the world…that with the right person at my side I could storm the gates & vanquish all pain & suffering…for someone who’s always been considered alarmingly cynical by peers & elders alike it’s a bit hard to look back & not wince*wince*it used to be galling to realise that he is right…mostly right…& that I, for once, didn’t always let my head control the wheel…in a way though, I mourn the loss of that cocksure person but upon reflection I think that only an 18 year old could possess that passion & surety…’cause in a world of disillusioned souls, it’d probably ease life just that little bit to have the daring & bravado to get out there & seize what you want without a thought to the consequences…so I apologise for saying that loving you unreservedly was the worst decision of my life…I think that back then…in that quicksilver moment…it was what I really wanted to do…with no reservations…no barriers…no pride in the way…it was wonderful & awesome & god-awful scary but it was good to feel so alive…gradually, when Time & responsibility have withered me a little it’ll be nice to open my treasure box & relive the feeling of warmth spreading through my veins…so hot it could scald you if you weren’t careful…so thanks…for teaching me something I could never have learnt from books & observation which is something I still persist in trying today*rueful grin*thanks for making me a better person…thanks for teaching me to appreciate so many little things…thanks for lifting my ignorance…thanks for teaching me how to love…it doesn’t matter if you never read this…but…thanks
