Archive for May, 2006

Flight or Fight?

Monday, May 29th, 2006

yup…the axe has finally fallen…life strikes me as very funny sometimes…& by funny I mean a mixture of the surreal & the amusing…albeit the latter in a twisted kinda way…it’s odd but every so often I am given almost but not quite what I was hoping for…in fact from the point of view of most people in these rare instances I always get better than I expected…that sounds good doesn’t it?*dry smile*I haven’t quite been able to convince people that the only reason this happens is ’cause I have such low expectations in the first place concerning certain things that most anything seems like an improvement…as Vengga once put it…I was aiming for the ground but got the stars instead…that sounds like a good deal until one reflects that this either means I have a pretty damned lousy sense of direction or somewhere out there a cosmic joke is being played on yours truly…something along the lines of: "hey…since she doesn’t really believe she’ll get it…let’s give it to her & more just so we can throw her in the deep end for free entertainment!"…the last time this happened to me…well…let’s just say Newton’s law of gravity works ok?the greater the heights that you’ve ascended to the harder the impact of your fall*sigh*perhaps I’m being overly pessimistic but let’s face it…you never really know until you try right?unfortunately, the only bit I don’t quite get is why people always have such high expectations concerning me…it’s something like…there’s no middle ground to speak of…it’s either hell or high water & god help you if you can’t swim with an asbestos jacket*wry grin*frankly…I’m worried & scared like hell…so this should be interesting*sigh*I keep having this urge to run like heck…the flight or fight response is kicking in, people, & believe me I’m rooting for the former*faint grin*

Winner or Loser?You Decide…

Monday, May 1st, 2006

Life is a strange animal really…& I use this analogy in the broadest of terms…you can be intimately associated with it your whole life (metaphorically speaking anyway ’cause I can hear people going, "well…like duh!") but it can never be tamed…love it or hate it, it’s wont to bite you damnably hard if you’re not careful…having said that I don’t believe that we’re put on this earth with a pre-determined course…I would probably be one of the first people who would bite through my reins, buck off my rider, trample whoever it is but good & then run helter-skelter in the opposite direction if I caught so much as a whiff of such a condition…I once read this description that sounded more plausible…our lives are only governed to a certain extent but it’s very hard to predict anything ’cause we’re given choices at each bend in the road…go either way & a different outcome will occur…I don’t believe that genes dictate who or what we are as people…granted it does play a significant part but could you honestly say that we are what our ancestors were?my life today would be vastly different from what say…my grandmother would’ve experienced…or even my mother for that matter let alone my father…an interesting theory is one where each individual carries a distant memory from the past…we’re made up of memories handed down generation to generation from the moment the first living thing existed…humans however are really something else…it’s entirely possible that boredom more than a will to self-improve spurred mankind on to what we are today…think ’bout it like this…perhaps the first social interaction occured ’cause some bright spark thought something along these lines : "hmm…I wonder what would happen if I hit that head with this big rock?" & thus homo sapiens began socialising…maybe not peacefully but it’s a start*grin*but seriously…jokes aside scientists have theorised that humans today are descended from the best of the best homo sapiens…basically the strongest, fastest, most intelligent, meanest, etc…you get what I mean…simply put, the earth back then was a heck of an inhospitable place…therefore whoever survived had to be the best…as for meanest well…there were many other humanoid species back then as well…for example, there was the neanderthal who was an altogether hairier though no less intelligent humanoid…not to mention a race of hobbits (a midget race to those of you living under rocks who have either never seen or read the Lord of the Rings) who populated what would later form the Indonesian islands…in fact nobody really knows how many other branches there are to the family tree…well…know why there are none of either subsets presently?bluntly put, homo sapiens brutally & efficiently wiped them out…another theory states that our survival was also greatly aided by the fact that somehow homo sapiens were the only humanoids to bond together & form communities (again with the big rocks but I digress)…thus we learnt to rely on each other & the cream of the crop so to speak would lead everybody on to more fertile hunting grounds with water,arable land,etc…if we trace our genome code far back enough we’ll find that we’re ALL & I mean ALL descended from a select number of people (barely more than a few hundred) who managed to survive this massive volcanic eruption that happened millions of years ago…so in a sense we’re all brothers & sisters really…VERY distant but siblings nonetheless…so all those priests, monks, sidhus, etc who give those sermons on brotherhood & the like aren’t exactly whistling dixie either…that being the case it’s pretty sad that even though we’ve progressed so much & so far we still can’t quite get over the urge to use the big rock…hell…we’ve gone & invented bigger AND better rocks to boot…& this time round it ain’t just to promote social interaction*snort*