Had Nothing To Do So…Here

Have you ever felt something with a searing intensity without quite knowing why you feel that way? sometimes I think that my emotions are like quicksilver…always in my peripheral vision but never quite within reach…in certain respects I’m happy to say that I’m thankfully a little wiser where my emotional well-being is concerned…for a bit more than 2 years I surpressed certain parts of my psyche with ruthless intent…in doing that I found out something rather ironically amusing though…when you surpress one component somehow or other a great many other things get buried too…after awhile it gets to a point that everything is faintly tinged with gray…all I really got from it was a temporary sense of numbness coupled with those same incomprehensible flashes of feeling without a recognisable source…it was kinda like feeling bone weary even though you’d slept the day away…I have to admit that I’m a pretty slow learner considering that it took me 2 years to figure out that I was gently injuring myself bit by bit…that I wasn’t just keeping everything out…I was also locking myself in*soft laugh*perhaps now…while I might not immediately clasp an outstretched hand…I might be persuaded to walk that one step closer towards it*wistful smile*